Kid Cudi Checks Into Rehab for ‘Depression and Suicidal Urges’
Rapper Kid Cudi has checked into rehab to combat “depression and suicidal urges,” according to a revealing and candid open letter he posted last night (October 4).
Cudi, born Scott Mescudi, made the announcement via Facebook, informing fans he chose to enter a treatment facility after struggling with anxiety and depression his entire life.
"Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges,” he wrote. "I am not at peace. I haven't been since you've known me. If I didn't come here, I would’ve done something to myself.”
Cudi continued, explaining in detail how his anxiety and depression have affected his day-to-day life.
"I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times," he wrote. "Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it.
"I can’t make new friends because of it. I don’t trust anyone because of it and I’m tired of being held back in my life," he continued. "I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, i’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, I’m sorry. It’s time I fix me. I’m nervous but ima get through this."
Cudi also assured fans that while he may not be around to promote any forthcoming new music, his album is still on its way.
"I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases," he continued. "The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery."
Cudi says he hopes to be out in time for a November 5 performance at ComplexCon, and goes on to apologize to any fans he may have disappointed.
"Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down," he wrote. "I really am sorry. I'll be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like sh---t, I feel so ashamed. I'm sorry."
See Cudi's full letter below.
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